I may think better of posting this now but I am going to go ahead anyway. I write this as my heart is broken. You are getting the raw uncensored thoughts and feelings. I just observed the defeat of the proposed language that I wrote about earlier. The minority report of the committee was adopted with some deleted and changed language from the current book of discipline but retains the "homosexuality is incompatible with Christian teaching." phrase. There was considerable compromise from both sides in the committees submission and admission of faithful persons disagreeing on the subject at hand. That trust was thrown out and we have moved backwards.
I watched as this was accepted by a 55% to 45% vote. I stood in solidarity as we began to sing "Jesus Loves Me". I cried as I tried to sing and nothing came out. I cried as I thought about my family and friends that are gay and continue to be condemned by a body that should be loving them. I start to lose hope and that leads me to start to lose faith.
As I said, this is raw and uncensored and I start waiting for my heart to heal.